oh wow.. i realised i havent blogged in a long while. haha. and no one's tagged.. goes to show how much every one cares abt me... :( boohoo.
anyway. chinese is finally over. haha. dont really wanna talk abt it.. both papers were crappy.. i guess the only word to describe it is OKAY. its not that easy.. and its not THAT hard either.. so.. dunno la. i can only pray and hope.. there's still ting li and oral.. hope i can pull it all up.. back to a good and beautiful grade..
haha. went to the aci IB open house today.. wayyy cool. dr ong was one proud guy. keeps showing off that they have so many awards.. BLEAH. i still cant stand the fact that they have gold with honours.. !!! bleah. and we only got silver. wahhh. haha. but i'm not going anyway. haha. i wouldnt even consider.. i cant imagine myself doing ToK.. i think i'll fail miserably. i dont like to think about why the sky is blue or who came first, the chicken or the egg.. god made it la.. so why do i have to wonder so much.. isnt the mystery of it all so magical, so awesome.. thats what god is. right? haha.. it was alot of fun during the tour though.. hehe. it took so long that we took an hour for it.. (: ahhh. fun. haha.
oh welll. i forgot whatelse i wanted to say..
oh yea. church camp's coming!! :D haha. cant wait cant wait.. wheee. so sad that i cant go on thursday.. ahhh. got school on friday.. and i cant skip. oh well.. better than nothing.. ): haixx. and the games is fun. cos we're planning it.. hehe. (: YAY. and its stupid. so you guys better watch out.. la la la..
oh yesh!! i rmb what i wanted to say.. WE GOT OUR
BLOG!! (: yupp the eight of us.. haha. yayayy...and i did it..! haha. its not really good but i guess its a start. hehe. (: yay.. so exciting..
anyway. life's back to normal. i think.. hah. my brother's getting worse.. keeps shouting for no reason.. haixx. his attitude.. i dunno la.. really hope he learns to control.. sigh.. always thinking about himself.. but i guess that human.. yeah. i wonder when will he learn..
alright. better go already..
a shout of praise.
11:00 PM
woah.. just read jia en's blog.. (jia en dont mind let me copy abit.. ) here's what she said.. :
"sec4.. a real time of testing.. especially when everything starts falling apart.. and not in place.. when family has become a cold place.. and not a warm fun and lovely home where we should all be able to care and share.. place our trust... when school has become our home.. we shuttle from house to school.. school to house.. and both. are called our HOME... when friends have taken over family.. when o-levels.. has taken over God..
"life sucks" what a nice thing to say.. i wonder what God thinks when He hears that.. He must be so sad. Its like we dun trust what He's doing.. if we believe God created us.. why do we still not believe Him.. every obstacle we go through on this Earth is in His plan!
whats the point? why cry over O-levels.. why cry over something that u can't bring to heaven? say that i am very slack la.. dun study and everything.. i do ok.. i do... i study what i can.. i dun want to study too much and break down.. and leave God aside.. if i am going to do tt.. i might as well just die!!! there's no more point in living.. cos i'm not living for HIm... RIGHT?"
and so on if you go read her blog.. her link is there..
dont you think its so true.. all of us are only seeing whats before us.. stupid o lvls.. why does it matter so much.. why has it taken over our lives? why are we thinking that we must do so so so so well.. sigh.. i HATE this.
a shout of praise.
11:57 AM
went for flag day today with the whole class and i'm so exhausted.. and sleepy.. almost was late today.. but managed to get to tiong bahru on time.. luckily.. (got chinese word for this!! jiao xing. heh. ) anyway. the 8 of us (minty, jiajia, xwoox, mey, laura, abi, cla and me) went together plus yinling and clara.. haha. it was funn.
but there were the stupid victorian boys. GGRRRR. they were the most irritating and rude boys i've ever met. >.< they took the whole stretch (and mind you it was just 3 or 4 of them) from the bus stop to the entrance of parco bugis or seiyu or one of themm. so anws. they were there and then whenever a bus came they would rush all the way (me and xwx were standing near the bus stop) to steal our customers. BAHH. stupid boys. and then when the traffic lights turned green for pedestrians they would rush back.. and the were the rudest people i've ever met.. when people get off the bus and were still arranging their stuffs they went and stuck their donation bags right under their noses and demanded them to donate. who'd donate like that?! so rude.. they'll just make them not want to donate and get angry or pissed. stupid boys. steal our donors too.. GRRR. i hate that school. pfft. yellow yellow dirty fellows. (they were wearing yellow tees). anyways. we took lots and lots of photos. okay maybe not that many.. but we took nice ones.. i thought i look quite nice. heh. and then we got free coffee from starbucks.. and some breaks.. my legs are so tired from standing so long in this humid weather asking for donation.. but at least its for a good cause.. and i'm quite pleased with myself. heh. then after the whole thing we went to city hall and suntec.. cos weixin had to go meet her parents there so we all went with her (minus cla and laura) and to eat lunch at the same time.. heh. but we kinda sidetracked and looked at clothes. we tried out stuffs at fox.. (: i want so many so many new clothes!! fox has such nice stuffs.. i want
- the yellow tube $16 -the white knee length skirt thats so airy fairy.. it's got a bit of lace.. $33 - the black blouse. its got crossed strings thingy at the top and two pockets at the top $33 - the denim skirt.. tho its abit short.. but its nice.. keep for a time when i will have nicer legs.. >.< price unavailable
- the red and orange and white thin line stripey top.. short sleeve offshoulder.. $19yeah... i want so many so many thing.. luckily the great spore sale is coming soon.. >.< there are alot of other clothes that i want too.. i know heeren's got alot of nice skirts and tops that i really really really want and i wanna buy stuffs from Wh and then there's that sweet giordano top with the rutch thingy at the top.. BLEAH.. no money..
okay.. i shall stop wanting.. better focus on the more impt thing.. chinese. its coming!! how exciting.. haixxx. okay.better go revise now.. wish me luck.. (:
<3 krissy
a shout of praise.
6:42 PM
OH MY GOODNESS. we are doing some arguementative on whether size of boobs are important. !!! this is crazy. ms tan's crazy. we watched a boob video. haha. so stupid. but oh well. it was cute.. today's quite slack. we finished our chem sllabus (hurray!) and then bio was again a sleepy period.. and we had recess and now english. and then now's mr yeo but no one wants to go for maths. hahaha. we signed our mark sheets today. i'm just happy that even though i did so badly for everything else (like Bs and Cs for the normal subjects). i had A1 for both maths! so thats quite good.. haha. oh well. everyone's leaving. better go. continue later.
okay i'm back. haha. we only had one (or rather half cos we took so long to get back to class) of math.. (: whoopie.. and then now's prefect elections.. (: haha we've got 30 votes. and man. haha. dunno who to vote for.. yay meimei! you're inside.. haha. congrats. (: hmm. good luck to those who are gonna be in the prefectorial board. xing ku ni men le. hah. its not gonna be an easy task.. but. oh well. all the best in your trying to control the school (: haha.
well. we have a talk later. ms sim's gonna talk to us abt jc entry. and i bet she'll try to boost our morale abit. haha. oh well. after all her daughter's in our lvl.. hmmm. wonder whats gonna happen later. gonna go out with my mom later.. i need to buy the green chinese tys.. :S its got so many papers inside.. wonder if i'll ever be able to finish it.. prob have to do 2 papers a day.. ten days more to the paper.. :S
i'm just babbling and not talking anything.. :S i'm bored.. ohh. we have flag day tmr.. long day. sigh. from 9 to 2! OH MY GOODNESS. standing in the hot sun.. and so humidd. but its better than if it rains. i think i'll cry. BOO.
there's cell tonight too at my house. cell's a time to grow fat. we have ice cream every friday.. eeks. but its good.. :( so how can i miss out on it? but oh well. think i cant go down for it anyway. gotta study. wonder if nat's coming and bringing a fren. if she comes and she doesnt bring a fren then i can study with her.. hmm. oh well. just a thought.
okay. bell rang. time for the talk. bye
a shout of praise.
12:06 PM
god?
you know what. my grades have been slipping. and i feel very disappointed with myself. i've tried really hard, yet i cant seem to do well. what should i do..i really dont know where to go now.. or what's gonna come next.. maybe its cos i have too much confidence, or too little faith, or maybe i havent been trying as hard as i think i am, or even cos i havent had enough practice and havent fully understood the topic. whatever it is. i know i'm capable of better grades, but.. this all seems like a dream now. a dream that will nvr seem to come true no matter how hard i try.
i'm really scared father. scared that i wont be able to meet the many expectations, parents, teachers, friends, and the biggest of all, myself. i really dont wanna disappoint them, and i dont wanna give up. but i'm so tired god. i really am. i wanna take a break. just forget about how important actually is and take this as lightheartedly as possible. but god, its really impossible. whenever i think of the o's, i get really frightened. what if i dont do well? what if i cant make the requirement? what if i do so badly that even australia wont want me anymore? what do i do next lord? my heart is sinking from all this weight lord, its really heavy. really heavy.
you know what i'm feeling god. cos you are up there, and i'm down here. i really wanna just hand things over to you to control, to take over my life. cos i know i cant do it alone. i really want to trust in you and believe i can do well. but. why doesnt things turn out the way i want it to? i know you have a plan for me.. and lord. give me patience and wisdom, help me believe. show me a miracle lord. take away my self-pity, my sadness. i really need your love and care now, more than ever. i dont think i can be brave anymore. i cant face this alone. i need you.
you know me father. even before i was born. you know my every thought, my every step. i love you lord. and i want to trust and have faith in you. with all that i am father, i give to you. cos you hold my world in your hands. and you want whats best for me. thank you god for everything you've given me. lord i just pray that you wont let me give up on myself. cos you nvr gave up on me. i can do it. not by my might, but by yours alone. and in everything i do, let it glorify your name. i'm so sorry father.
amen
a shout of praise.
11:42 PM
haha.we're in the com lab now doing our DISC profiling for the second time.. haha. I'VE CHANGED! i've become more of a C than an S. haha. i used to be SC.. oh well. anyway. i'm this:
Practitioner Systematic and detailed, Kristi focuses on the process. Others see her as practical and logical. She tends to be sensitive to criticism, but prefers to internalize her emotions rather than expose them. Kristi likes to clarify expectations before undertaking new projects, because she works hard to meet the standards that are set for her.
A loyal friend, Kristi is patient and caring when attending to the needs of others. She is usually an even-paced individual who thrives in a peaceful, harmonious environment. She tends to be quite predictable, sticking with proven, reliable methods of dealing with situations rather than taking chances with a new, unproven approach.
A warm, outgoing person, Kristi enjoys having a high level of interaction with others. She usually finds the "silver lining" in a difficult situation, and typically enjoys the thrill of trying new things. She has a gift for influencing those around her and is viewed as an instinctive communicator. Others find Kristi easy to approach and enjoy her easy, open rapport.
Kristi prefers to work through problems by analyzing things that worked in the past. She is willing to follow another person's lead if they display adequate ability and if Kristi has confidence in their ability. She is someone who is able to lead, if necessary; but usually prefers to wait and see if another person volunteers first.
haha. some of it is quite true.. SO FUN. haha. and my values style report..
Personal Freedom
You take action in order to be emotionally and psychologically secure.
You enjoy having enough control of situations to "do it my way."
People may say you are a nonconformist.
You prefer to exhibit your own style rather than follow fads and trends.
You don’t mind challenging things that conflict with your viewpoint.
You tend to focus on your pursuit of various life experiences.
hmm. maybe that explains why i always want my own way. haha. this is wayyyy cool.. :p this is supposedly for career week in sept.. hmm. wonder what kind of job will be best for me..
a shout of praise.
11:14 AM
sigh. i think there's something wrong with my stomach. i think i'm having the somach flu or something.. sigh. keeps on tossing and turning.. its horrible.. ): sigh. in the library now... and i'm feeling ultra cold. and its supposed to be a math.. and sigh. lao shi's gonna use mr yeo's e math period later. blah. thats 4 whole periods of chinese today.. feel so tired of chinese.
i made a list of things i needed to do just now during geography cos mrs chong was telling us stories again.. i realise i have alot to do.. and under the study section there was like an endless list.. bahh. and there's alot under the nonsense list too.. ): i dont have time for alot of things. i'd better start cutting back.. haixx.
i'm missing sec 3 life.. the sec 3s just finished their exams today.. haha. and theycan go play and go out already. i'm so envious. its not fair. shucks.. ):
oh noo. i need to go thaw.. i'm freezing up and i cant type properly.. my hairs are erected and my rib cages are contracting. eeks. i wonder what happens if you stay too long in an extremely cold place. maybe all my hair will drop out cos they're too tired of standing up so straight. and my ribcages will become smaller from all the contractions. and maybe i'll become skinnier cos you need to burn more fats to keep warm. ha. that'll save me alot of money from wax and slimming treatments.
anyway. i think i'd better go do some work.. :
a shout of praise.
9:45 AM
i'm tired.. ): yay.. i feel so happy. i ate 3 pieces of stingray just now for recess.. (: yay. AND i ate the last one. haha. i like our recess time on tues and wed.. its like the canteen is for ourselves. no need to queue at all.. plus now that the sec 1,2,3s all have exams we dont have to fight with them to buy food.. (: haha. oh well.
anyway. a math test was so stupid. i wont be getting full marks already. stupid integration question.. make me lose my marks. BLEAH. so disappointing.. and the stupid area question.. so careless. it was so obvious yet i didnt see it.. ): sigh. hope i do okay for the rest..
i feel like changing the blogskin.. haha. but i'm too lazy.. haixx.
we had bio practical today. thought we'd be getting 3 free peiods. plus our amath periods and free period and recess. then i might as well not come to school. BUT we had bio lab. i realise i'm super lousy at practicals. i dont understand what they try to say. maybe its because mr tay always just shows us the answers. hmm. oh well. i guess i have to work harder at it then..
sigh.
a shout of praise.
11:49 AM
woahhh. guess what. there was police in our school today.. b5 was vandalised.. then they had to change classrooms.. and the canteen too. and the lvl one toilet on b5's side. woahh. so serious.. they spray painted f u on the walls.. so scary.. hmm
why do people just do the senseless things? if that person was really from our school then wont she be expelled. dont people think of the consequences if they get caught.. but then again. like the compre passage said in the chinese paper, some times people just do the stupidest things, cos to them its reasonable. BUT HOW CAN VANDALISM BE REASONABLE. isnt there like a line that you cant cross. : so silly ah this people..
oh. heard about the burnt lockers in barker. these people are really mental.
anyway. a math tmr.. hope i can get full marks. or at least near that. i hope i do very well. i hope i hope.. i really practiced really really hard. dear god help me please please please not rush thru and make stupid careless mistakes that i shouldnt be making.. grant me wisdom and peace and a clear mind, that i may think thru every question carefully but quickly.. i pray all this in jesus's most precious and holy name. amen..
oh yeah. GOOD LUCK lemonny. (: good luck for your physics paper.. hope you do well.. and pass with flying colours.. yupp. i'll pray for you.. remember that thru god all things are possible so you can do it surely.! (: use god's strength and not yours alone ya! (:
studying with leemey and candice is good. i found that out today. haha. cos kaye had higher chinese and christine was with her fellow a3 friends. so didnt feel in place.. so anyway. me candice and leemey studied in class until quite late.. but it was good and productive.. mey and candice did their chinese. i did my a math. and i managed to remember quite a bit.. (: SO HAPPY. cos i really forgot how to do.. but now i remember everything.. really happy.
oh well then. time to get back to amath..
a shout of praise.
10:23 PM
OH MAN.
math is going to kill me. seriously. we have like TONS of math homework now that mr yeo is gonna go for reservice. but that also means. HAHA. NO MATH NEXT WEEK! :D but. other tchers are using his periods. so no hurray.. can you imagine 2 hours of chem in aday? woah. info overload.. i think my brain'll just burst.. :
i feel cold.
i cant believe 3 guys can finish a tub of 2 litre ice cream. i am amazed. how do they do it?! after cell my bro was like. eh lets go eat ice cream. and so.. nick and chris came up for ice cream and they ate like the whole tub-ful, and its like. full of fat. i'm so disgusted. and goodness. it was scary.. and disgusting cos they practically drank it up at the end cos it was too melted. ewww.
shucks the cme song's stuck in my head. heh.. X
oh ya. nat and nick are gonna plan the games for church camp! I WANNA HELP OUT TOO!! haha. i will i will.. once the chinese is overrr. haha. but that doesnt leave me with much days. hmm. nvm. i will do the amazing race at the end of the yr then.. (: haha. i love evangel. and i wonder if i'd get to play my keys over there.. and drew and shawn and daryl ( and i hope leemey) are coming for church camp. i dont believe it.. haha. its gonna be so so so so so funny. and wierd. and i hope it wont be drastic. :S i wonder why i asked in the first place.. : oh ya. kimmie. hmmm.
it still feels cold.
you know. i dont get vectors. okay.. correction. i'm starting to get it. but i dont like it. and i dont like kinematics. at all. both a math and e.. yucks. i like differentiation and integration better. can we please please please go back to that.
bahh. i feel sleepy.
my mom's leaving for perth.. ): i wanna go too.
a shout of praise.
4:22 AM
HELLO HELLO.. i have not blogged in EONS. hahah. went to study with kaye and christine and yo and minty at kap today. haha. cla. dont worry. just come the next round ya..
haha. we talked alot of nonsensical stuffs. like abt rong and her ..? and well. something special, and more more more gossips. haha. and minty left early cos she wanted to sleep or something like that. : hmmm. so
shao xing. oh well. today was like the re-opening ceremony of the kap-pers study group or something.. cept that half of the group disappeared to goodness knows where. and. we have new sec 3 members!! haha. good good. more people to carry on the tradition.. yay. to think we were like them.. last yr studying like crazy for the HORRIBLE mid yrs. and now. we're all mass dating mr Oliver. bahhh. i rather be sec 3.
oh well. anyway. had chinese today.. :S i think i did okay la. its passable. i have nothing to say about the cloze passage. O.o as usual. haha. prob fail. unless i become the tyco queen. then i'd prob pass with flying colours.. -prays hard-
KHOO. I'M NVR TALKING TO YOU AGAIN UNLESS YOU TELL ME HOW YOU FOUND OUT. AND THATS THAT.. BAHHH YOU.
so. yupp.. thats about it la. oh ya. i forgot. TODAY WAS THE LAST EPISODE OF GOOD LUCK.. ): boo. so fast. no more alr.. i really loved that show.
hmm. maybe i shall become an air stewardess. :D
okay. enough. i shall stop ranting.
peace
<3
a shout of praise.
10:24 PM
